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Monday, January 29, 2018

Welp, I'm fucked. But you, dear reader, profit! LYFE to release this week.

So last week, I was in the middle of prepping my first thriller, THE SEINE VENDETTA, for publication.

I didn't aim to be a thriller writer. But writers without trust funds have to go where the money is. My first love was sci-fi, but alas, I fell for her in a better age. I've been sitting on a sci-fi epic named LYFE for the better part of a decade. After years of sending out copy after copy after revision after revision of the manuscript— and being told by agents and publishers that my premise isn't sexy or marketable enough—I got an offer to write a thriller for money, up front, for the action genre press STORM RHINO.

I decided to throw myself into action writing. I had to finally accept the fact that sci-fi in the 21st century is the sole province of ideologues (most of them left-wing, although there's an almost equally hidebound little Christian cabal fist-shaking at them in a corner). As my own ironically fixed tendency is to be wary of and repulsed by ideology, I told myself that, yeah, this isn't the genre for me... and maybe they're right anyway; maybe my ideas in sci-fi really are unmarketable. I figured I might as well switch to a genre that valued my work. IN DOLLARS.

But I came up with a plan to recoup LYFE anyway: I decided I'll let Storm Rhino publish my thriller novella, get a little buzz, see how that short format works for me, and then divide LYFE up into a series called ELEKTRA'S REVENGE and self-publish it as a series of novellas as well, catering to the short attention span of everyone these d...

WELL, GUESS WHAT? It was last week I made that decision. Not seven days ago. I had barely processed the thought and begun to make plans as to where to divide the books when I discovered, that despite the TOTAL UNMARKETABILITY of my premise, Netflix has come out with a series USING MY PREMISE.



This is the basic framework of both LYFE and Carbon Whatever-It's-Fucking-Called: a future society is inflexibly lorded over by immortals, who live and rule forever while the underclass dies. And then the worm turns.

UNMARKETABLE, EH? NOT A SEXY PREMISE, HUH? WHAT'S IT DOING IN A MAJOR SERIES, THEN? It seems that via magic, if you choose the right parents or cronies, any premise suddenly becomes marketable. I really need to go back in time and climb into a different vagina-hole. Or pick friends that don't all die young.

Well, if this show is a hit, it will definitely demonstrate that the publishing industry is a meritocracy and all of those agents and editors were correct to publish stories about transexual dinosaurs instead, so that's something. Silver linings!

Now, I'm not saying that Netflix found out a way to send mind reading rays through my tinfoil hat to steal my ideas. I'm just hinting at it strongly. I've read that this "prestige series," although created from an unmarketable premise that no one would ever want to read or hear about, was  based on a novel that was published in 2002. Which we ALL know cannot be true, as there WERE NO NOVELS IN 2002! Everything worth having was invented after the Smartphone. Gawd, how dumb do these people think we are? (I don't know how close the details are to my books, because I'm too heartbroken to actually watch their goddamn series.)

All I know is that in order to avoid appearing to be derivative of this crap series, I have to publish my book THIS WEEK, before the flood of ACTUAL  derivative works and rip-offs and fanfic begins to appear.

So watch for it in the next few days. ELEKTRA'S REVENGE, BOOK ONE: LYFE.

Not that it's going to help much, as my work will be buried in the usual piles of garbage that come out every five seconds on Amazon.

This is just another of the too-awful-to-be-a-coincidence disasters that have befallen me as a writer. The last one was far more macabre. Let's call it the Tale of Dead Bert. My friend Jamie Mason, the Canadian novelist, and I, wrote a pilot script for a sitcom. (You think I'm going to tell you the premise? Fucking think again!)

The script was hilarious, as Jamie's old friend, who was a Hollywood producer, assured us. The only way you can make a TV show is to know somebody, so his enthusiasm for the script was like manna from heaven. He agreed to make plans to produce it, and we were as excited as you may imagine. As we moved ahead, however, Bert's communications suddenly grew sparse. Never negative, just... sparse. Then they trailed off. We were pissed as hell and very insulted and disappointed... and then we felt ashamed of ourselves when we found out why Dead Bert, as we now call him, had gone dark.

Dead Bert, as you may have guessed by now, was dead. He had thought his cancer was in remission. However, the moment he decided to give us a chance, the gods decided to strike him down.

So, if you want to be part of a real-life thriller ("Cult author ripped off by evil gods and scriptwriting bots, but saved by grassroots publicity machine!"), please share this fucking post. Book to appear roughly round the weekend. Here's an excerpt that is TOTALLY UNMARKETABLE—totally unmarketable except for you, my loyal readers, with your amazing taste and brilliance:

PROLOGUE: The Year 4083
“Elektra!” the old man snapped.
The little girl nervously whipped her gaze up from the floor. She had been making a cocktail napkin do battle with her Anihil monster doll—noisily, she now realized. She was seven years old and already a bit afraid of the sound of her name.
Grandpa Burgundy’s voice was cutting, but the ghost of a smile at one corner of his mouth encouraged her to turn on her babyish charm. Adults were moody like the weather in the City of Heaven, but this was one of his good evenings. So far.
“Elektra, the play is about to begin,” he growled. “Get up in your chair. Your daddy can see you from the stage, you know, so you had better behave yourself.”
Grandpa Burgundy—known as old Lemon Burgundy to grown-ups—smiled as the child put her thumb in her mouth and widened her eyes in half-mock fear. The girl had not yet been on a stage, had no idea how the bright lights made it almost (blessedly) impossible to see the audience. But he dearly hoped she would come to know it better than he had. He smiled to himself, imagining his granddaughter as a theater star; he just had to keep her on the straight and narrow. Things were looking better for young mortals. But then his mouth tensed as though something inside him had curdled. His hands clenched on the arm of his wheelchair.
Elektra didn’t notice. She climbed excitedly into her plush theater seat and settled in with her toys, the real and the makeshift, eager to watch her father in what was going to be his greatest-ever theatrical role. He had four lines of dialogue! For most of the production he would sing in the chorus as usual, but he was the first mortal to have more than two spoken lines in a major production in the City of Heaven’s history. And musical theater was the most important art form in the city. She would have thought “in the world,” but “City of Heaven” and “the world” were synonymous to the little girl, unless you counted the slave planet below. Up here where it mattered, theater was everything, and her father, Bartleby Burgundy, was about to sing onstage!
 She had so much to be proud of. Had she been a bit older, she might have noticed the beautiful 100-year-old women who were jabbing their fingernails in her direction, pointing her out, the daughter of the low-born star. She only sensed the energy. She smiled brightly at her grandfather.
Her smile faded as soon as it bloomed. Surreptitiously, noticed by no one else—or at least they were pretending not to notice—the old man had slipped both his arms under the poncho draped across the arms of his wheelchair, making a tent over his lap. She could see a slight ripple beneath the poncho as one hand approached the elbow of the opposite arm in a practiced manner. She was a naturally happy, good-natured seven-year-old; but she was observant too, and she knew there was a syringe under the blanket. She made a superstitious gesture (middle and forefingers each pressing an eyebrow) and prayed to Malavika Billingsworth—her favorite actress—that it would still be a good night after the play.
Tonight’s piece was perhaps history's eight-thousandth rehash of The Taming of the Shrew. Malavika Billingsworth was playing a modernized Kate, so Elektra supposed her prayer would be very lucky. The practice of praying to theater stars wasn’t part of an organized religion; it wasn’t even a longstanding tradition, as mortals had only been allowed into Heaven proper for two generations now. But it was a popular practice amongst that caste, and it gave comfort to mortal children in particular. As Elektra finished her prayer, the curtains parted, the whirling lights brushed the audience, and a cunning melody arose from the orchestra pit; the show was on and she forgot about the grown-ups’ problems.
When Malavika came onstage for her first solo, Elektra felt a delicious emotion, somewhere between religious ecstasy and displaced filial piety; her real mother had long ago abandoned the family, and it was wonderful to dare to imagine this pretty, full-blooded Immortal holding her in her arms and loving her. But there was real family pride to be felt as well; Dad was about to sing his first solo line. Bartleby Burgundy was an even better performer than Malavika—even if he spent most of his time in the chorus. Despite his mortal bloodline, he was clearly the brightest presence on the stage, just as her grandfather was said to have been back in his day.
The crowd cheered dutifully when the wooden actor who played the male lead appeared in the foreground—but most eyes were drawn again and again to the background, where Bartleby Burgundy’s lithe antics and powerful tenor made an unavoidable spectacle within the spectacle. Sure, the show's structure was flimsy, but they all were, nowadays. Although no one would ever dare say so aloud, the system of casting by caste dumbed the art from down. The background performers were often more talented than the leads, and stole the show—so the playscripts had to keep getting simpler to stop the viewers from losing the plot as they watched the background antics.
For the past couple of decades, the more popular mortal extras had been getting one or two lines per production. Tonight, Bartleby’s four lines would make theater history. His little daughter’s breath caught in her throat as he stepped forward, singing: “Do you want music? Then twenty stormbirds shall be caged, thy guinea horse adorned!”
There was a murmur of appreciation at the sound of his voice—so rich, so clear against the lead actor’s muddy bleating. This low murmur was perfectly acceptable. But when he moved toward the high note (“Thou hast a girlfriend far more beautiful than any other on our waning moon!”), a mortal in the second row forgot herself, and clapped and cheered.
The performers charged professionally on, but everyone could feel the oxygen being sucked out of the room. One did not do that. The poor woman was clearly drunk and ecstatic, but that was no excuse. There was a slight disturbance as the crowd parted to let the Government Officers who had suddenly materialized from the wings filter in and surround the impious woman.
The GOs, as they were called, looked like insects in their body armor and dark-visored helmets—a jarring contrast to the softly pretty costumes onstage. The designers had done their best to reproduce what they thought Elizabethan clothing looked like back on Ancient Earth. Malavika was especially dreamy in a peach-colored gown of moonsilk, spun from the spittle of a rare water bug that lived only at the bottom of the New Tiber River.
The GOs, on the other hand, wore recycled titanium panels from a long-defunct interstellar ship. While the taller Government Officers looked like insects, the shorter ones looked like garbage cans. But nothing else about them was funny to anyone. One of the blank, black visors turned Elektra's way. Though she was only seven, and the closest she’d come to committing an infraction was playing war on the theater floor, the invisible eyes in the helmet sent paralytic wave of guilt and fear over her body. She couldn’t breathe till the hooded gaze moved on. The Government of the City of Heaven didn’t like to make its presence overt, but when it did, it was implacable.
The woman disappeared, along with the Government—the GOs melting into air, dissolving her like white blood cells—and the play went on. Bartleby’s second line was delivered into a tomblike silence. When intermission came, the pall remained, floating over the crowd like a curse. No one, however, discussed it. When the Government and its Officers appeared from behind the curtain, you didn’t say anything. It was another one of those things that weren’t quite… polite.
Another thing that wasn’t polite to mention was the flurry of illicit drug use that went on during intermission.
There was plenty of legitimate drug use, as well; it was a middlebrow play, with a mixed crowd of mortals and Immortals. Use of the popular euphoric Lyfe was acceptable for Immortals in any social setting—although, at the moment, most of the Gods who were present seemed more interested in buying cocktails at the bar than in shooting up.
Meanwhile, a handful of guilty mortals disappeared into the alleys and toilet stalls with their syringes. They liked Lyfe as much as anyone, but for them it was a legal and social offense.
To an outside observer, this would have appeared, at first, to be a grave injustice. But this double standard was in place for the mortals’ own good. Unlike the Gods, they really would be better off without Lyfe.
This drug Lyfe was a strange substance. So strange that it seemed to double-underline the disturbing oddness of homo sapiens centauri. The Lyfe powder they mixed with fluid and injected into their veins was refined from a silky soft, reddish ore that had been discovered in the otherwise very nasty soil of Earth Two, many centuries ago. The City of Heaven was not on a planet, but rather seated on the nice, temperate moon of Earth Two; the planet below was barely inhabitable, with crushing gravity and carcinogenic air. Only mortals lived and mined in its fetid bowels; in fact, till a couple of generations ago, when Elektra’s grandpa changed everything, the mortals had all been miners down on the slave planet. A hundred generations of them had lived and died on that wretched globe, knowing nothing more than crawling against the excess gravity through tunnels like rats. Which again must sound like an injustice to the broader minds in the universe—till one is versed in the inexplicable but obvious biological differences between mortals and immortals.
The discovery of Lyfe and the establishment of the castes were lost in the sands of time, though there were legends. But the tales explaining why they were all on a sphere orbiting Alpha Centauri instead of Sol had been well preserved: their forebears had stupidly triggered a nuclear holocaust on Earth One. (Legend held that the chain of events began with an unpaid restaurant bill and a lost earring during a state visit in Belgium.) The four thousand worldwide survivors took a deep breath and launched an untested Chinese prototype of an interstellar cruiser. They barely limped to the nearest star, around which circled Earth Two and its lovely moon. Then the power struggles began, and they ended in a caste system—which was nowadays completely justifiable, if you looked at the two castes’ absurdly different physical reactions to Lyfe.
When first injected by any class of person, Lyfe produced an euphoria so divine it dwarfed any other pleasure the species had ever known. It granted both energy and restful sleep, wit and inhibition, sexual desire and potency too, even if you also got drunk; a feeling of being loved and loveable, and a luxuriant degree of self-confidence. The first dose made everybody feel like a child rolling in a pile of candy and toys. Best of all, it made life feel like it meant something, even if you worked ten hours a day in a Lyfe refinery. There was no hangover, and it was difficult to overdose; if you took too much, you nodded off and woke up ready for more. It was so good that psychological addiction was near-inevitable, particularly if your life was terrible; after a few tastes of dear, sweet relief, you didn’t want to go on without it. Long-term use then began. And it was there that the mortals were separated from the Gods.
Lyfe preserved Immortals like flies in amber—if flies in amber could live, breathe, and sing out of tune in high-budget theater productions. The drug brought them eternal youth and health, which afforded lots of time in which to accrue wealth and power. They weren’t, however, immune to violence, and after a few centuries, suicide or murder always drew the curtain down on their personal dramas. Each young God bragged that he would be the first to live in joy forever. But veterans of a couple of centuries of life became—behind the youthful mask of flesh—dark and strange animals.
For mortals, the long-term consequence was the very opposite. No one could tell you why. They got all of the drug’s spectacular euphoria, as well as the psychological addiction—which was followed in mortals by a physical addiction of agonizing intensity. The withdrawals were more painful than heroin and more deadly than alcohol, with terrifying hallucinations; even after the drug cleared their system and the shaking ended, the victims were left for months with a pulsating sensation of doom that made them wish the process had killed them.
So most of them stayed on Lyfe once hooked. But instead of living forever, addicts of the mortal class were crippled and maimed. They died an early death, usually well before the age of sixty—but not before losing their faculties in a humiliating and painful free-fall.
When the mortals were all miners on Earth Two, this had been a small price to pay for short-lived joy; their deaths were already accelerated. The raw Lyfe ore they handled every day caused cancer, and it was rare for a miner to live past the age of 30 in any case. (It was not nice, but someone had to do it in order for anyone to live forever; since they had so much slave labor—the mortals never tired of intoxicated procreation, no matter their misery—the Gods never needed to find ways to automate mining.)
But then came Lemon Burgundy, Elektra's grandfather. His singing down in the mines was so beautiful that he was brought to the City of Heaven as the first mortal immigrant; there, he served as an extra in musical theater. This was the thin edge of a wedge of migration skyward; after thousands of years of using these human resources exclusively for mining, the Gods found they were quite useful as cheap servants and theater extras. And the more extras that were available to do the chorus work, the greater was the number of Gods who could become top-billing stars in the most glamorous field in Heaven.
It was a near-perfect labor setup... except that seeing junkies die in the streets was a bit of a buzzkill for the Immortals.  So the fact that Lyfe addiction tended to whittle the underclass down to useless stumps by their thirties came to be considered a public health crisis.
Little Elektra was still innocent, and would not taste Lyfe till her late adolescence. Nor would she taste any ordinary adolescent pleasures: Bartleby was determined to preserve her childish purity. Mortals who worried about becoming respectable tended to forbid Lyfe to their children, even if they were themselves addicts. Bartleby, for instance, would be damned if anyone would call him a bad parent on top of being an addict. So aside from a brief stint when he was unable to enforce his will—the gentle reader will soon find out why—he kept her locked in their tiny apartment, as punishment for some made-up misbehavior or another. Whenever she asked why she was grounded again, he would scream: “You know why!” (She didn’t.)
This meant she had no friendships that extended outside of school; and so, soon, she had none in school either. But at least she was safe. Bartleby usually kept her away from the theater, too, as it was an unwholesome place, full of… well, full of people like himself. But once the little girl had grasped the momentousness of his role in this particular play, she had used all her charm to work her way into a theater seat.
Little did he know, this was her second play in as many weeks.
While Bartleby was away at late rehearsals and sordid parties, Lemon Burgundy treated the child to every kind of theatrical production she liked. She may have been grounded, but no one was going to tell the legendary Lemon Burgundy—the first mortal ever to immigrate to the City of Heaven!—that he couldn’t take his granddaughter out when he liked. (Well, except for his son, who was still able-bodied, but if he was going to use that ability to go carousing, then he could hardly be everywhere at once.) It was their little secret; and if Daddy was going to be gone so long every night drinking—and talking to those strange ladies—then who was he to tell Elektra that she couldn’t indulge in a little magic of her own? He had no idea.
And during intermission, he also failed to see her as she crept secretly toward the wing where he was hiding with his own secret. Elektra knew that Grandpa was a junkie, but Dad just liked moon rum and Immortal women.
Elektra had gone into the ladies’ room with pure intentions. The long line of twitchy mortals waiting to sneak into the stalls for a fix scared her, however, so she went for her usual solution: she would slip out down a quiet back hall and make water outside in the alley. The child knew it wasn’t considered quite clean to do that, but she wasn’t sure why. In fact, it seemed nicer to do her business out where all those grown-up ladies with their strange smells hadn’t been sitting there doing whatever their business was.
On the way down the hall, she discovered the open backstage door.
It was a low door. The building was ancient, built back when people were short, because they hadn’t figured out how to extract the non-poisonous kind of protein from dead Anihils. A different world opened up beyond its threshold: the lights were soft and multicolored, and scrims hung from the rigging, red and shimmering, ready to transform the stage for a new scene. It was a pathway into something. Something you couldn’t know till you burrowed in, and then it would still glow with a teasing mystery. Costumes were draped on soft chairs, still warm from the Goddesses’ hips and shoulders. Someone had dropped a pot of greasepaint, still rolling back and forth on the rainbow-smeared floor. It was too inviting.
Elektra gave in and entered a room whose walls were scrims and curtains, cut off from the rest of the backstage only by cloth. She imagined the back of the building as an infinite space, a maze, a fantastical labyrinth full of Gods and taffeta and dance shoes and wine. She could hear the director giving the cast a pep talk somewhere, several halls of cloth away, in another world. It was very warm and smelled of perfume. She found the place where one curtain met another, where she could break into the rest of the maze; she peered through cautiously.
It was a short rosy corridor that turned right and out of her vision. At the end of it, her father crouched with a syringe. She pulled her head back through the curtain and sucked in her breath sharply. Dad wasn’t just drinking when he went out with those ladies! She froze.
He didn’t notice her; the needle was full. He grinned at it intently, trying not to think too many steps ahead. He had to finish up without dropping it on the ground, and then catch the end of the pep talk before the second act. It’ll be good to be high before that bullshit, he thought. He had put a little more Lyfe into the mixture than was probably smart, but he needed it. That incident with the GOs had shook him up. Yeah, and he was nervous to begin with; this show was such a big deal, and what was wrong with a little extra boost before the finale? Yeah, tomorrow would be difficult, right? And his tolerance was getting expensively high. But he promised himself he would go easy on the Lyfe when he got to the cast party. Tomorrow wouldn’t be too bad.
Who was going to take Elektra home, though? Could the old man bundle her onto a guinea carriage himself? Well, they should probably go cheap and take the hippobus… They would probably have to ask for a stranger’s help in hefting the wheelchair aboard the vehicle… ahhh well. What a man doesn’t do for his art… hehe, this is good shit…
He didn’t yet suspect that the dose was thrice what he was used to. His dealer usually stretched the expensive powder out with guinea-horse tranquilizer, but today the guy had a vodka hangover of his own; he had felt too sick to go out and buy the filler.
Elektra, transfixed, watched the needle slide into her father’s abscessed arm, into a thick mottled welter of scabs and sores and ruined veins.
His mind was pulsating with beautiful lights. And the awful suspicion that he was way, way too high to be a star.
Something else was happening as well, deep in his blood. Something was fusing, something was changing. He could feel something dark and final rumbling in his heart.
But to the little girl, his face was ecstasy. He looked like he was biting into a sugar cookie. His arm looked like a medical display of rotting flesh. Some of it was even green. He’s dying. She stifled a sob and fled the labyrinth.
Her grandfather patted her seat. “Are you OK, Elektra? Sit down.” She stared angrily at him, at his guilty arm, there under the blanket, thin and probably covered in bloody horrors. She realized she had never, in fact, seen his arms; they were always covered in fancy but worn velvet pajama sleeves. “Hello? Young lady?”
“I’m here,” she said flatly, and flumped into her seat with her arms crossed. She was shaking, but she certainly didn’t want to talk to him about it. Her father blamed his father for all of his own misdeeds, and she was still young enough to believe him. If Dad was on drugs, then it was Grandpa’s fault. She scowled up at the old man surreptitiously.
The second half of the play began as stiffly as any play the little girl had ever seen; she was old enough to wonder if everyone in the room was still thinking about the Government. As far as she knew, you were supposed to think about them as seldom as possible. She tried to apply that principle to the images of veins and abscesses that were now flooding her mind, but she couldn’t stop them; whenever she managed not to think about the Government she thought about infected veins, and whenever she managed not to think about veins, she saw the garbage-can GOs storming the stage. She blinked and tried to concentrate on enjoying Malavika’s lovely voice. She tried to guess how long it would be until her father appeared. He would do OK, wouldn’t he? From his arm, it looked like he did drugs all the time.
She had heard her father practicing the lines together with her grandfather, and she knew what was coming: Malavika would sing:
“Is this moon a sun? Or is that sun our moon?”
And then Bartleby would spin onstage and reply:
“My name is call'd Vincentio; my dwelling Heaven;
And bound I am to Earth; there to visit
A daughter fair, which long I have not seen.”
But at the end of his cue line, no Bartleby appeared onstage. The orchestra then stumbled into the next measure; Malavika grinned foolishly and marked time with her feet, pawing the ground, having forgotten her next line in the unaccustomed confusion. A few beats later, a foot finally appeared from the wings.
Most of the leg appeared next, but then the foot-leg unit froze midair, sticking out horizontally at waist height. The crowd could hear a sort of maniacal giggling in the wing, where the foot-owner’s head would presumably be, but Bartleby let things get very awkward indeed, particularly for the musicians and Malavika, before the rest of him lurched onto the stage.
His pants were, for some reason, absent. His underwear was worn thin and grey.

“Dirty!” he croaked. “Rotten!” he elaborated, and then fell into a pile. He lay still for a moment, then poked his head up, looked around him suspiciously, and ran offstage. The crowd tittered with appreciative laughter; they had heard Bartleby Burgundy was going to have a spectacular showing tonight, but they didn’t realize it would be such an important role as Falstaff.

Saturday, April 2, 2016

NEW BLOG: annsterzinger.com

Hey there, blog reader. If you're wondering why I haven't posted anything since back in 2015, indeed I have: I'm now blogging at annsterzinger.com.

Same bad attitude, just a more grown-up name. Because eventually you need a blog that doesn't have bad words in the title. Unless you think my name is a bad word. I guess there are a couple of trolls that do, but my parole officer says I should consider that a form of flattery.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

The Maw Gets Another One: Julie Lindemann

Oh, fuck you, cancer, to quote Kerry Reid. I knew this was coming, but still, fuck you, cancer.

Someone I admired died today.



Julie Lindemann first saw me when I was puking off the porch of the punk rock house I lived in when I was 21 (I wasn't aware of her presence till a few bleary moments later). That is the age of hangovers, which explains the puking. She was a grown-up punk rock girl, still cool as hell; she was actually IMPRESSED that I was vomiting off the porch, and she was roughly as old as I am now. She had a timeless punkness that she never lost, even when she had admitted she was going to lose to the rebel cells.

I met her thus, in the filthy confines of my own home, because she and her mate Johnnie Shimon were coming to visit my roommates, Nigel and Brett. Nigel and Brett (Brett is now deceased as well) were two punk rock reprobates from Manitowoc, where Julie and Johnnie had been living and working their photographic magic for, I dunno, decades.

Their life's work was taking portraits of the lovely whack-jobs of my home state of Wisconsin:

See? Click for beautiful. 



The portraits as well as most of the subjects were legendary in their off-the-beaten-path eccentricity and hard-core dignity. I went to their last photo exhibit during Julie's lifetime this spring, at the Museum of Wisconsin Art. Thank god I didn't miss it (thanks to Vee Sonnets, who drove); the couple were unable to attend because Julie was in too much pain, but I saw an artwork there for whose conception I suppose I had been present:

The last time I saw them, they had come to visit me in Carbondale, where we went to see the ruins of Buckminster Fuller's own...

Original geodesic dome...

... I had no idea at the time it would be the last I would see of her. So appreciate every moment with people. You never know. I never went to see them enough. I was busy, I was lazy, I was an ass.

Anyway, at the Museum of Wisconsin art I saw one of Julie and Johnnie's photos of a leafy canopy, repeating as panels of a geodesic dome hoisted near the ceiling...



That's how I said goodbye.

Goodbye.

Peter John Mclean Reviews NVSQVAM

... declaring it a great book.

Full disclosure: Peter and I work the same street corner under the same pimp.

JOKING!

We have met a couple of times, but fuck it, it's cronyism all the way down these days. And he was able to see past the shitty, hasty formatting of NVSQVAM's Kindle edition (one of the many tasks I need to get to now that I'm free of this train wreck is straightening that mess out).

Admittedly, as Peter remarks, the title NVSQVAM is not necessarily doing me any favors. I figured it would stand out; trouble is, in all the flotsam and jetsam, to stand out a title has to be FOUND first.

In any case, this made me smile:

 Lester is by no means a likable character, as if that were a fair metric by which to judge a protagonist. He is a depressing, depressive, and selfish person, but all people are selfish and Lester generally just appears to be more honest, at least internally, about how selfish he is.

Read the whole shebang here.